HELLO MY LOVE TODAY IS PAULS BIRTHDAY HE WOULD HAVE BEEN 42 AND I STILL CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY HE WAS TAKEN FROM ME BUT I HOPE YOU ARE LOOKING AFTER HIM. I CANNOT BEGIN TO DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. IT SEEMS TO GET WORSE NOT BETTER AS THE YEARS PASS. I KNOW YOU ARE WATCHING OVER ME AS I KEEP FINDING WHITE FEATHERS SO HOPE YOU ARE PLEASED BY THE WAY IN WHICH I AM TRYING TO KEEP ON TOP OF THINGS.